Pattygora

Sorry for not blogging for ages guys I have been terrible in that sense but good in that I have been working so hard you will be proud . From Monday I began working out with my gym buddy again and its been great . We worked on lower body and i did so many squats I couldn't walk the whole week now that's what I call determination. I have also been drinking atleast 1 litre of water first thing in the morning for 2 weeks and I must admit it does wonders .  I trained hard even when I couldn't walk and it felt so good so I am proud that this week was literally blood , sweat and tears for me .My inspiration Serena Williams won Wimbledon yeay !!!!!!!goes to show that hard work pays off. I am exactly 28 days away from the big day whether ill be fitting into that size 14 or not is still unknown but I know I have worked hard . This week I have lost my buddy so its going to be my own hard work , I am determined to do it . I am planning on becoming on point with my diet , ...

Everything seems so wrong everyone else is happy except you . You are hurt but there is no wound and no pain killer to soothe the pain.  Its that pain from within , a pain you don't deserve , a pain that is selfishly inflicted on you by another individual .  Have you ever been so hurt , or has something ever happened and instead of reacting or crying you're too emotionally drained to react ?  Thoughts might start flying across your mind at this point or maybe an hour or two later or even a week later.  Its that temporary moment of insanity where you start reacting to a pain that is so deep within you that nothing can soothe it and you cant control it .  My moment starts on the onset of the even , the minute i walk into that room and see that other woman , the moment I see that text message , the moment a friend tells me what she heard .  That insanity overwhelms me and eats me , digs into me and I must release .  HOW? I open my mouth...